100TC #7 - Breathe Again

Sorry everyone I have been getting a bit late on my 100 Themes writing challenge. I will say I am a slow writer, and posting a new text every day is quite a challenge. So I might slow the pace a little bit, but do not worry I will still post very often :). I shall not make you wait any longer, so here is number 7, based around the theme "Breathe Again". 

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- BREATHE AGAIN -

Blood Rose

Finally, I will breathe again...

It has been so long. I felt like I was choking. I needed air. I needed to breathe. I needed it, to feel alive again. Without it I am not, I felt like a mindless corpse tending to my everyday job, soulless. I tried to change, I have always known this was wrong, but as far as I can remember, this is how I have been. I do not know why others do it, but I know why I cannot stop myself from doing it. It feeds my soul, my very being. It gives me the strength I need. It gives me a heart, with it I feel whole, I feel human, I feel alive. Every time I do it, it is as if I was reborn. Born anew, stronger than I ever was before, I feel life flow through my veins. It is enthralling, it is the most powerful feeling I could ever feel. It is more than an addiction; this is the very reason of my existence. It is all part of a great design I have been meant to be the center of. I might be different, others might think I am wrong, but I am above it all. Unlike them I know, I know what this feels like. I know what it can bring. The truth has been revealed to me in it, it makes me who I am, it is my destiny. Alas, I cannot do it whenever I please and I have been a long time without enjoying its delights. But tonight is the night I will breathe again. I will cut her veins with the knife I have prepared for this special night. The blood will flow out of her veins, slowly like rain on a beautiful blood rose, and life will slowly leave her poor and frail body. A small sacrifice for a greater design. I live only to kill, and as I slowly drain the life away from her, as I will see her take her last and final breath, the last sparkle of life dying in her eyes, I will breathe again. 

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(C) Copyright 2014 Hope Alexander aka David Giroux for the text

Picture by Ashayaa